euphoria’s emotion

to my self…

                  im sorry if i always put you on trouble =(            i really dont mean it but sometimes i always do things without looking on its consequences….

but how can you tell that loving can sometimes gives damn stupid effects?! i thought his the right one for me and he can take care of you too but i was wrong…it hurts me a lot i almost swallowed everything for him even my pride and this was the effect?! geee i hate this and i hate him much now…i dunno if this would be the last but i dunno if i can still handle those things=(

                                                              love,

                                                      apple,,,=(

im confused…=( dunno why..do i really luv him?? is this just a feeling that will fade after an hour,a minute,a second?or even,,,,,a year?…duhh i dunno why i have dis damn feeling 2wards him i wanted to tell him how much i love him but i dunno how..after that last conversation…after those things stops i wanted to shout and get mad at him i wanted to tell him that he should not stop because i love him that i mean it soo much but how?do i have the right to do it i wanted to get mad at him everytime i saw him goin w/ sum1 else…=( T_T